"Ever walk into a situation where you know exactly what's going to happen, and then you go and do it anyway, and then when what you're afraid of happens, you kick yourself because you should've known better. But that's just who you are. So you keep punishing yourself."
~Snow White; Once Upon a Time
I have been in many situations where I knew in my mind what was going to happen; I knew the consequences, and I knew that I could save myself a great deal if I just simply walked away. And now I live with regret, thinking to myself, wondering; why didn't I just walk away?
I feel like a stupid schoolgirl who failed her exams because she refused to study her lessons, even though she was given so many chances to do so. Wait - I still am that stupid schoolgirl.
I just never learn my lessons for the long run. Do I have to be constantly reminded of how shitty being regretful feels? The uneasiness makes me want to puke every time; knowing that I'm not right with God, with others and with myself.
But that's just how it is. I think the thing we have to constantly remind ourselves is; you can't take back the past and redo your mistakes. You just gotta learn how to deal with your life and keep learning. It's painful to wait for forgiveness. So do the time. Earn it. Learn. And when someone questions you, be strong and humble; you know you've done wrongly, so accept it, apologize, learn from it and carry on.
Keep calm. Life's too short to live in regret, because if you do, you're more likely to regret living.
