Backing Out

Tomorrow I have got a chemistry exam, and until know, I haven't studied for it. I know I'll regret it, but that still doesn't drive me to study. I'm losing hope I guess. I don't think chemistry is for me. Aren't I supposed to be interested in it then study for it because of my interest? I admire those people who are forced to take something they do not like but still excel because of scholarships, or because of expectations. They are driven, and no matter how much I try to find that drive to drive me into reaching for excellence, I still cannot get the one that will push me to my limits. I don't know why, I don't know when, I don't know how. All I know is that I do not want to do it anymore. But so far, I cannot choose to back out.

TTFN,

andSahar

2011: My First Post

This is a whole new year.

Another set of 365 days, 364 now that it's January 2.

I don't know how to start the year. I still feel like it's just 2010 repeating itself.

I'm more scared than excited. The idea of possibilities seem scarier than opportunities, don't you think?

I've listed down some things I want to change. New year resolutions? Naw, I never follow them anyway. Just things I want to change.

1. My current body weight.
2. My whole closet.
3. My lame gadgets.
4. My height? Anyone know how I can get taller?
5. The things I eat.
6. The number of things I eat.
7. My internet hours. (By "internet" I mean FB, Twitter and Tumblr.)
8. My current residence. I want to travel. See life in another country.
9. My relationships. Friends. Foes. Family.
10. My habits. I like to peel the skin of my lips and fingers.
11. My study habits.

I should have checklist, huh? Oh well. Let's hope this list won't be like all my other failed new year resolutions.

TTFN, Tah Tah For Now,

andSahar